Fail

been a while since the last post. not much too say accept that boredom is due to the lack of imagination an motivation. things sometimes seem better when your busier and in the moment and rush of all thats going on. but its good to relax once in a while. a plan. ya a plan thats what i need. no, not a 5 steps to succes plan , but something with goals and objectives. maybe i just need to try somethin new or a different approach, maybe i am going at it all the wrong way. change of angle. different possible perspective. hmmm. well there is always the need of more fresh air water and sleep. excercise, a balanced diet, etc. etc. checking for any symptons of one of the new disorders, umm( no , second thought that would probably be an excuse). maybe if i woke up and actually thought for once instead of gettin caught in an endless mind loop of mishmashed television programing i watched years ago along with a fantasy world of video games being numbed by the bright light i squint at even now.i dont have any idea what i am talking about what i need to do to make a future from the point at which i stand at now. it reminds me of one of those feelings you get when your in a place that is normally super busy but at this time is completely empty you walk around thinking about all the other times you were at that spot and what was happening, but some how it never all connects to make sense to why you are thinking it now or even why you are remebering it maybe its a smell some weird deja vu , maybe i just need a beter understanding of time. tommorow i will learn, discover, conquer, develop, hahaha, just a thought, well who knows maybe somthing incredible will happen.