Fail

Its been almost a year since I last wrote something down on here. As I read a few of the quick previous entries of mine I realized that when you look back on a particular moment in time, that moment seems more simple then your present circumstances. I stop occaisonally and wonder if later on in life I am going to regret an worry that I hadn't done the things that I had ought to have done to provide my self with a more fulfilling life. Well there are so many decisions to make, paths to venture down, adventure's to embark on or to not to embark on, many times I speak when I should reamain silent, while others I remain silent when I should speak. I don't think I fight harder enough or try hard enough for what I want or want to attain. Maybe already I am possibly feeling guilt, not in the eyes of others but to myself, within myself. Like a struggle of control or maybe just a lack of strongly reinforced goals and planned completion dates for those goals. Some plans are difficult to carry out or to even begin... ...fresh start, first impressions, not all goals are time controlable some I must wait patiently for, some I must search for, and others will be stumbled upon...