Fail

There was a knock at the backdoor today. It was a cop. I figured I was going to be arrested or something, or maybe he thought this was a crack den from the look of the back deck, but I guess he was looking for someone in one of the apartments below and couldn't get in the front door. So I let him in through the apartment. I went for a walk tonight down to the casway. then i was going to go to rockwood park but only got to the overpass down there and sat down and thought about things for a while.
I bought a gerbil today. I forgot to ask if it is male or female though so i dont know what to name it. oh well maybe it doesn't need a name. I figure I will just wait until it tells me what it wants to be called. Today I basically just got to know it. At first it seemed kind of refined but I am sure in time we will both open up and be able to share experiences.
sometimes i do something or say something and when i walk away i am thinking.. whoa that was cool. but then like five minutes later or not even i realize it was really dumb and everyone thinks i am an idiot. i played ball hockey the other day it was pretty cool and i need to excersize more.
Sometimes it is hard to know what to think about yourself.